September, Huh?

I'm usually a person that is cautious when it comes to psychic readings. It kinda scares me because I don't really want to know or just hear what their predictions have to say even though they could be some sort of fraud. My motto for life is to just live and not worry.

But, right now, in this moment of my life, I'm desperate. 

Several weeks ago, I was reading an entry from, The Life of Husband and Wife and how she sought, for fun, a little psychic reading from a woman named Cherri via email. She's a baby fertility psychic and by that I mean, she has the ability to inform you of your fertility journey. It's a small fee ($12) for a little psychic fun. So, I splurged and without any hesitation, I went for it. 


Today, I got my reading. My heart fluttered as my email loaded and I eventually smiled with butterflies in my heart. 


I thought of my husband, Mr. Dubyah. This is exactly how he is. 


The reading gave me hope once again. Right now, I'm pretty down because of the cyst and being on birth control. I feel like we are at a standstill because we aren't taking steps towards making our little family. But, after reading this entry from Cherri today, I smiled and it was genuine.


Here's my reading:

Thanks for being patient with me while i got back to your reading. They show me a BOY and they relate him to SEPTEMBER so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in.

 

Your son is someone who is always going to be able to figure things out easily. Almost like as if it was for a baby, but yet its something that even some adults are finding to be tricky. Always going to have amazing focus and really pays close attention to what is happening around him. Often being involved in many things rather than just one.

 

He has good friends, tends to hang out in a larger crowd rather than just one on one.. hes very social, loves getting to know people and just sharing experience. Hes always really honest and tries to be helpful with people. Not just whatever they happen to be doing at that time, but helping them to get back on track. Hes someone who I would consider to be very compassionate, Often understanding of someones situation before they even have a good idea of what is going on.. hes usually already pinpointed the issue, and is more than willing to help them on it.

 

I am seeing your son, always being very trust worthy.. hes mature for his age, and seems to be really mellow. When everyone else is freaking out, your son is watchful. Paying attention to the details and able to put things into better perspective. He loves science, so any contests through school (like science fairs) is something that your is amazing with, and seems to love public speaking. Can be in front of the class and pretty much tell them whatever he needs to. (hes always confident)

 

When it comes to career paths, they show him working in a councilor type fashion. I am seeing him working with people who have addictions or addictive type personalities.

 

When it comes to marriage I am seeing him closer to 28. They will have two girls and one boy of  their own.

 

Courage.

Sigh. I am honestly at a loss for words these days. I was courageous and scheduled my baseline ultrasound on my 3 year wedding anniversary. To be honest, I was hoping for some wonderful news, but in the back of my mind, I knew it wasn't going to happen. I was imagining me smiling as soon as I heard the RE announce that all ovaries are clear and it's a go to start the treatment. 


Sadly, that wasn't the case.

So, the cysts are still present. Another round of birth control and if it doesn't clear up next month, another round of surgery. I'm so over the surgeries these days. This is the most exposure I've had with getting my insides opened and it plain sucks. My belly button has a permanent scar and just below my tummy, I have yet another permanent scar-- all from the laparascopy in January. 

I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. Why me?