Another delay?

Sometimes, I can't help but wonder if the tiny delays that I've had to encounter is equivalent to red flags, or it just pure coincidence? 

My latest delay is outpatient surgery. Our RE called me personally this morning ( I love that!), to tell me that he reviewed my HSG film to take a closer look at the polyp/fibroid. He would like to have it removed because it's big enough where it may be impeding on implantation or if I were to get pregnant, may cause a miscarriage. Screw you Catholic OB for telling me that it shouldn't impede on me getting pregnant. 

This is the most times of my entire life, thus far, that I've been poked and prodded. Am I playing catch up?  


On another note, Mr. Dubyah and I celebrated our 2 year Wedding Anniversary this past weekend. Our Anniversary date is May 25th. We celebrated by taking a local vacation to the California coast and stayed in the very charming town of Los Gatos, CA. 

The town of Los Gatos is such a cute place to live in. I loved every inch of it. From the oh-so retro yet modern homes surrounding the hills and streets, to it being a very pet friendly place. There were doggies everywhere. Maddie absolutely loved it, that's for sure! 

We stayed at the Los Gatos Hotel & Spa which is a pet friendly hotel. I loved that they don't charge an extra fee for your pet to stay. The moment you step in, you immediately take in the smells of lavender that follows you from the lobby and into your room. 

When we arrived in our room, I was swooning with the Mediterranean charm and oooh and awwwing over how they took care of Maddie as well. 








They provided her a doggy bed and two ceramic bowls for her water and food. 




 

They even provided a small bag of gourmet doggy treats from a local pet boutique called Bow Wowser. 


We had such a relaxing time. It was a good small getaway and I'm so glad that we decided to celebrate our anniversary this way. I love exploring the nooks and crannies of the areas around us. 

The Initial Consult.

We finally had our initial consult with the fertility clinic. It was suppose to be last week, but due to my Dr.'s surgery schedule, they had to reschedule it, which I'm really, really, thankful for as I'll explain why later. 

As I pulled into the parking lot, I still couldn't believe that I was going into a fertility clinic. I guess you can say that I am and have been in denial regarding our trying to conceive. I keep hoping that we'll magically get pregnant on our own each month. Obviously, that hasn't been the case, but hey, when you have an unexplained infertility issue going on between the two of us, it can't hurt to dream, yes?

When I walked in, it was kinda comforting seeing people in the waiting room that were there for the same reason as you and that was "having a hard time getting pregnant." For some reason, I was soaking the environment all in as if I were going to write a novel describing the place. Weird, I know. But, knowing that this will be a place to visit for awhile, I wanted to get used to where everything is. 


One thing I noticed is that they had many, many doors. People were being called in from various locations. It was kinda funny. The first time when I got called in, they called me from the door closest to me to get my vitals such as my height, weight, temperature, blood pressure, heart rate, and oxygen level. They even took a couple picture of us for our file which I found kinda funny. 


Then, they had us wait again in the waiting room and finally after what seemed like an hour, they called us in again but from another door which I couldn't see. I heard my name, but just couldn't figure out where it was being called at. It was all too funny. 


The doctor (RE) we met up with is the head of the facility. Before coming in, I've heard good reviews about him. It was good to finally meet him and see how caring and compassionate he is which reasassured my confidence in him.  He basically went over our file and then did an ultrasound on me. So glad that our consult appointment was done today as I just finished up my AF. Had it been last week, they would have seen me in all my gory, gunky, self. The day of our first appointment I just started my AF and when I just start my AF, I am very heavily flowing. Can you just imagine the horror??? 

Right now, our plan is to get some blood work done. One of them being an FSH level on Day 3. My Catholic OB did get an FSH level done, but it was done randomly. The result of it was within normal limits, which was encouraging but he still wanted to get a Day 3 FSH level. Once all the labs are done, he's then going to start me on the fertility drug, Clomid and we'll do IUI. 


Hopefully, we can start in July. Here's for a great summer everyone!

Today is not a Good Day.

Today is not a good day for me. I'm sad. Just sad. I'm trying to get out of this funk, but it's really hard. I wish I could go back in time to two years ago on our wedding day when I was happy and hadn't a clue of what me and Mr. Dubyah were going to go through in the following months.

I keep hoping that we'll beat this. That we'll magically and naturally get pregnant. Like this month. Alas, I am feeling my AF symptoms and it's making me sad. I hate this. Why? 

Just yesterday afternoon while grocery shopping at our lovely Walmart, we hear a mother of two shouting quite loudly to her 2 year old children to " SHUTUP." I felt so bad for the kids. A woman who we later found out is a {off duty} police officer gained the courage to step to the mother and told her that there is no need to yell at her children like that. It became a huge shouting fight, moreso by the mother; not by the police officer, ofcourse. She was really making it a big production. 

But just witnessing this whole event made me wonder why people like her are able to have children. I swear, it's just not fair! 

This coming Thursday is our first appointment with the fertility clinic. I'm happy that's its with the head of the fertility clinic. Gives me some hope that we'll be able to get pregnant.We'll see. It's pretty much an informational appointment with the clinic and our RE. Here's to hoping for a good session!