Here's to Hoping for 2011

Well, tomorrow I'll be a whopping 35 years old. Gah! I'm absolutely dreading it because it's 5 years away from the big 4-0. It's also the "age" where having a child gets a bit harder to have. Oh, and it's the age where I'll be getting my lovely Aunty Flow on. What a messed up birthday present my body can give me, yes? Not funny! 

Yesterday, we had a visit with our doctor at the clinic to discuss the next steps with our baby making journey. He gave us three options:

1.) Get a laparoscopy surgery to check my pelvic area if I have what's called, " endometriosis." Since I had polyps removed over the summer in uterus, he wanted to make sure that I didn't have any of that stuff in my pelvic area because it can also impede on pregnancy. He also stated that he would check my uterus to see if any of the polyps returned.

2.) Post Lapascopy surgery, begin injectible medication called Gonal-F and do another IUI. 

3.) Bypass the above options and go straight to IVF. 

Here's my issue. Mr. Dubyah and I would love to go straight to IVF because it's been such an emotional roller coaster of ups and downs (mostly downs). We've been putting all of our hopes and dreams into each cycle every single month and it gets sadly deflated so quickly. 

But, my gut is telling me to do the laparascopy surgery just to make sure that there is nothing there. Even though the doctor has stated that the surgery doesn't matter if we go through IVF, my fear is that, " what if" we decide to go through IVF sans the surgery and we don't end up pregnant? I guess reading fertility blogs and message boards doesn't help my decision either. Also, IVF is very costly and having to go through something with that lingering over my head just makes me all uneasy.