Control

Just like, Janet Jackson, I want to be in controooooooooool. 

I was thinking this afternoon why I keep getting frustrated over this whole baby making journey. It basically comes down to me being in NO control over this entire journey. 

I can't control the fact that my body decides to up and create a cyst in my ovary. 

I can't control the fact that my body decides to grow some endometriosis along the lining of my uterus.

I can't control the fact that my body responds well to Clomid but yet can't seem to get the egg and sperm to meet.

I can't control the fact that I can't get pregnant.

Once I get in control, I know life would be easier. But, when will that happen? I need some sort of control soon.