Eating My Words, Literally.

OH MY FREAKIN' GOD!!!! Holy Crap! These were the words coming out of my mouth and silently speaking from my mind when I went with my gut and took an ovulation test this afternoon. 

Ladies and Gentlemen, this is MY VERY FIRST ovulation test that has appeared like this. + SURGE, baby! Hell to the YES!

Nevermind that I literally just got off the phone with the RN at the clinic to make an appointment for the next day because I had a negative surge this am. Heck, I'm trying to have a child here, people! So, yes, I did call the clinic back and yes I did tell her that I just did a 2nd ovulation test and ummm, it's positive. 

So, with that said, she had me come in that day and guess freakin' what? I have two mature follicles; one on each ovary. One is 22mm and the other one is 23mm. The RN gave me the trigger shot to help mature the egg even more and we are schedule for an IUI tomorrow morning! Holy Hell Batman! I'm ecstatic and nervous at the same time. But, I really need to calm my ass down. Seriously. I don't want to count my eggs (no pun intended) before they are hatched. I don't want to set myself up for disappointment. I need to stay strong, keep my wall up. But, by golly, we are going to do IUI tomorrow morning!! Wish us luck! Can you tell that I'm a newbie? Just a tad, huh? 

Stupid Pink Lines Continued.

Why can't these kits be clearer? For God's sake, we are living in the 21st century, and yet, its hard to tell whether or not you are picking up an LH surge or not. Maybe it's me though? Stupid me. Looking at the lines too much and over analyzing them. 

For instance, this morning, Cycle day 13, I grudgingly take out an ovulation kit and pee into a cup, stick the kit in, wait, wait, wait.... and I see this, {again}.

Looking at the picture, it's pretty obvious that there is no 2nd line. But, I swear, in person, the line I see has some dark pink to it, albeit, its faint. Ugh. 

It looks like its up to the clinic to decide whether or not I'm ovulating. I made a call already to them for a CD14 LH surge check. This whole ovulation thing scares me. I know that I get my period every month, but I can't help but think, am I ovulating? I have never been lucky with these things, hence the reason why I hate them so much!

Stupid pink lines.

It's cycle day 12 and I feel like crap. The Estrace pills have been giving me headaches and it feels as though they last all day long despite taking medication for the headaches. Ugh. Fortunately, today is the last day that I'm taking them. I hope the headaches go away as soon as I stop taking them.

Yesterday, I started testing my LH surge with the ovulation kits. So far, no surge. Today, I even did the test twice. Once in the morning and the second time in the early afternoon after reading that its best to test for ovulation in the afternoon. I had high hopes that I would see a matching line, but unfortunately, no line. Makes me wonder, am I ovulating?? 

The plan is if I don't see a surge tomorrow, then I am to call the clinic so that they can see if I'm ovulating via ultrasound. 

Here's to hoping.

Cycle Day 5

I am three days into taking the Clomid and so far, so good! This morning, I did feel a little bit of cramping, but it was no big deal. On Day 8 of my cycle, I should be starting the Estrace and then the following Monday, I begin testing to see if I'm ovulating. 

I'm not too thrilled about the ovulation testing as I didn't have much success with it when I was trying to figure out when I did ovulate. The above picture is exactly how I look when I'm looking at the stick. Am I or not?!? 

I wonder if it has alot to do with my night shift schedule. I don't really sleep well on days where I worked the night before. I can easily fall asleep once I get home, but like clockwork, I wake up two to three hours later. In fact, it's usually right on the dot at 11:00 am. 

The clinic wants me to use the 2nd urine of the morning. When I initially tested, I used the urine when I first woke up 2 hours later after going to sleep. So, hopefully using the 2nd urine of the morning will help me determine if I'm ovulating. Nonetheless, I am to go into the clinic on cycle day 13 if I have no detection.