Moving On

This past Sunday I got my AF. I knew it was coming. It was no surprise. The fertility clinic told me that they were expecting me to receive my menses on that day too. Wished they would have given me a heads up that the suppositories can delay my AF. Talk about giving my hopes up! 

I had to find this out via message boards. Oh, what would I have done if the internet didn't exist. I'm not sure how women in the 80's and early 90's survived without all the information that I'm finding out via the internet.  Yet alone, how did they manage to find support while going through all of this?

So, right now, I'm back to square one which is starting with 100mg Clomid Days 3-7 and then taking my headache medicine, Estrace on Days 8-11. Possible IUI #2 will be in a couple of weeks and then the waiting game renews. 

The husband and mamasita keep telling me to not be stressed out about it. This kinda annoys me a bit.  I understand what they are saying, but what annoys me the most is how they say it. It's almost they are getting irritated with me which in turn makes me defensive and not wanting to vent out my frustrations to them for fear that they will get mad that I'm stressing over it. 

How can I not when I'm the one taking all these pills which are a daily reminder of our infertility?

Well, here's to hoping once again that IUI #2 will work. Trying to stay positive.

Todays marks the 14th Day.

Today marks the 14th day since I had IUI #1 done. Yesterday was Cycle Day 28 for me and no period. Today I have no trace of a period either. Buuuuuuuuuuuuuut, I have been getting negative's on my home pregnancy tests.

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I can't help but wonder if it's the Progesterone Suppositories that they had me take the day after the IUI procedure that is keeping my period away. I keep reading lots of posts on fertility boards that say this. However, at the same time, I keep hoping and praying that isn't the case and my HCG levels are not enough for the home test to pick up. One can dream, right? 

This whole being late scares me though. I've always been a regular period kinda gal. By the book if you must say. 28 days. So, I'm hoping these fertility drugs didn't mess up my system. 

I did put in a call to the clinic this morning to find out what I should do. Whether I should wait a few more days, stop taking the suppositories, come in for a blood test? Ugh. 

8dpIUI

It's been eight days since my back to back championship IUI and I'm literally dying here. This 2 week wait is no joke like many people say. I'm trying to keep myself busy, but my mind always falls back to, " I wonder..., or, wait, what is that pain?"

A few days after the IUI, I did feel twinges of pain. Now, all I have is a sore throat and cough and no other symptoms which makes me think that my lovely AF is going to visit me in a few days. According to my Periodtracker, it's due to arrive in 4 days. I sure hope not.

Today, I'm hoping to get things off my mind by joining my girlfriends in an all afternoon Spa Day at Burke Williams. I've never been to BW. Heard good things about them which makes me quite excited about the whole experience. I decided to get the Emily's Intrigue which is one of their signature treatments.

One more week and we shall all know the Ugly Truth.

I had sex without the sex part.

This morning, I had sex without the sex part. Cept' it was all mechanical and formal and oh yeah and it got pretty kinky because there not one but TWO televisions and we all played nurse/doctor roles. 

All jokes aside, this morning at around 1115, Mr. Dubyah and I did our first IUI treatment. It was pretty gnarly only because and it all makes sense with the whole lube and don't want to kill the sperm theory.  The doctor didn't use lube on the wand. Instead he used water and so it went in pretty raw and it was a bit uncomfortable at first. I had to take in some deep breaths quite a few times to relax myself. Even Mr. Dubyah was requesting me to relax as he could see I was in discomfort. I truly wanted to yell at him and say, wouldn't you be unrelaxed if you had two wands shoved up your hoo haw??? 

Anyways, the good news is that Mr. Dubyah produced 4.6 million sperm. My eggs haven't bursted yet out of its follicle. We are hoping that it will burst within the next 24 hours or so and because of that, we get to do this all again tomorrow afternoon! Yup, just like back to back championships for many sports teams, we get a back to back IUI's. 


Right now, I'm feeling a bit crampy and bloated from the mature follicles. It's like I am waiting for something to just break open so that I can relax. I'm a bit tired but I think it has to do with having to wake up early and having a pretty hardy breakfast. 


Until tomorrow....... we wait for 2 weeks and see if we are preggers.

#1 IUI Here I Come!

As I'm typing this, I'm anxiously waiting for Mr. Dubyah to get ready so that we can head on out to the clinic. His appointment is for 0900 and then two hours later, 01100, I'm going to get turkey basted with his giz. My apologies for the way in stating it, but being so informal helps me calm down and not be so down and out about this whole trying to make a baby thing. 

So, with that said, wish us luck! Ready or not, here we come guys! 

Eating My Words, Literally.

OH MY FREAKIN' GOD!!!! Holy Crap! These were the words coming out of my mouth and silently speaking from my mind when I went with my gut and took an ovulation test this afternoon. 

Ladies and Gentlemen, this is MY VERY FIRST ovulation test that has appeared like this. + SURGE, baby! Hell to the YES!

Nevermind that I literally just got off the phone with the RN at the clinic to make an appointment for the next day because I had a negative surge this am. Heck, I'm trying to have a child here, people! So, yes, I did call the clinic back and yes I did tell her that I just did a 2nd ovulation test and ummm, it's positive. 

So, with that said, she had me come in that day and guess freakin' what? I have two mature follicles; one on each ovary. One is 22mm and the other one is 23mm. The RN gave me the trigger shot to help mature the egg even more and we are schedule for an IUI tomorrow morning! Holy Hell Batman! I'm ecstatic and nervous at the same time. But, I really need to calm my ass down. Seriously. I don't want to count my eggs (no pun intended) before they are hatched. I don't want to set myself up for disappointment. I need to stay strong, keep my wall up. But, by golly, we are going to do IUI tomorrow morning!! Wish us luck! Can you tell that I'm a newbie? Just a tad, huh? 

Stupid Pink Lines Continued.

Why can't these kits be clearer? For God's sake, we are living in the 21st century, and yet, its hard to tell whether or not you are picking up an LH surge or not. Maybe it's me though? Stupid me. Looking at the lines too much and over analyzing them. 

For instance, this morning, Cycle day 13, I grudgingly take out an ovulation kit and pee into a cup, stick the kit in, wait, wait, wait.... and I see this, {again}.

Looking at the picture, it's pretty obvious that there is no 2nd line. But, I swear, in person, the line I see has some dark pink to it, albeit, its faint. Ugh. 

It looks like its up to the clinic to decide whether or not I'm ovulating. I made a call already to them for a CD14 LH surge check. This whole ovulation thing scares me. I know that I get my period every month, but I can't help but think, am I ovulating? I have never been lucky with these things, hence the reason why I hate them so much!

Stupid pink lines.

It's cycle day 12 and I feel like crap. The Estrace pills have been giving me headaches and it feels as though they last all day long despite taking medication for the headaches. Ugh. Fortunately, today is the last day that I'm taking them. I hope the headaches go away as soon as I stop taking them.

Yesterday, I started testing my LH surge with the ovulation kits. So far, no surge. Today, I even did the test twice. Once in the morning and the second time in the early afternoon after reading that its best to test for ovulation in the afternoon. I had high hopes that I would see a matching line, but unfortunately, no line. Makes me wonder, am I ovulating?? 

The plan is if I don't see a surge tomorrow, then I am to call the clinic so that they can see if I'm ovulating via ultrasound. 

Here's to hoping.

Oh, the anticipation.....

Today, I had to suck it up and drive to my doctor's office to get a Tdap vaccination. I was a wee bit close in not going, but I forced myself for the love of our "potential" pregnancy. You see, I HATE needles. I hate them even more so now since I'm having to come in contact with them more and more. It's not the getting blood from me part that gets me, because fortunately, I was blessed with pretty good easy to see veins, but it's the "anticipation" part that I dread the most. You can be talking to me trying to distract me, but in the back of my mind, I'm still waiting for that needle to break skin. 

It was thankfully over before I knew it, but I do remember closing my eyes as she injected the vaccine in me. 

What's funny about this entire story is that I stick people too at work and I have no problems doing so. The worse part, it's not the vein, it's the artery which means it's much deeper and it's like finding a needle in a haystack. 

Cycle Day 5

I am three days into taking the Clomid and so far, so good! This morning, I did feel a little bit of cramping, but it was no big deal. On Day 8 of my cycle, I should be starting the Estrace and then the following Monday, I begin testing to see if I'm ovulating. 

I'm not too thrilled about the ovulation testing as I didn't have much success with it when I was trying to figure out when I did ovulate. The above picture is exactly how I look when I'm looking at the stick. Am I or not?!? 

I wonder if it has alot to do with my night shift schedule. I don't really sleep well on days where I worked the night before. I can easily fall asleep once I get home, but like clockwork, I wake up two to three hours later. In fact, it's usually right on the dot at 11:00 am. 

The clinic wants me to use the 2nd urine of the morning. When I initially tested, I used the urine when I first woke up 2 hours later after going to sleep. So, hopefully using the 2nd urine of the morning will help me determine if I'm ovulating. Nonetheless, I am to go into the clinic on cycle day 13 if I have no detection. 

 

Timing of AF Sucks!

I swear. My AF always seems to come at the most perfect time (sarcastically speaking).

I got my AF during my wedding. My poor BFF had the honor of removing a blood stain from my dress. 

I got my AF last year during a camping trip and well, like tradition, I got my AF once again during our camping trip in Santa Margarita. Most importantly, it had to be when I was far, far, away and with sucky reception to call the fertility clinic to order my meds so that we can get started on our first IUI.


But, life goes on and thankfully my parents had "Verizon" as their phone carrier and I was able to call up the fertility clinic and receive calls with no problemo. Phew! Thank you Verizon. But, I still love my iPhone :)








Right now, I am taking two pills of Clomid making up 100mg, a low dose aspirin to help with blood circulation, and ofcourse, prenatal pills. So far, so good. No mood swings yet, but I'm only two days into the meds. What I noticed however is that my cramps are not as bad, no blood clots either, post surgery, which I absolutely love.